maybes

i was thinking, maybe if they were friends, then he would think that spending time talking to her wouldn't be a waste of his time.

maybe if they were friends, he would want to see her more often.

maybe if they were friends, he would be waiting excitedly for weekends to see her.

because after all times have changed.

now it just feels like a chore to juggle and divide between responsibility and personal time which he has been craving.

she doesn't understand, that you cannot force people to do things that they do not want to do. but he doesn't understand that the fact that he "does not want to do" those things are hurting her deeply, inside out.

it's just another day,

another time.

another phone call.

another weekend.

when is he ever going to be free from these horrible obligations?