stuck

it began mostly here, five days sitting blank and gloriously white on my screen. well not on my screen actually, on czeeyong's borrowed monitor. i have so many things i want to say but literally incapable of passing it all down to a small tiny summary because everyone would have only heard one side of the story.

i know that i'm loved immensely. i know that i'm treated well. i know that from the beginning of time until the present that every kiss has been doubled and every sense of attachment has grown stronger.

maybe that is the reason why i have nothing to say. because what i had to say trivializes all the important things and lends an ugly face to the beautiful things that i'm trying to protect.

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