we’re often envious of the stupidest things

i come from a place where i do not have to worry much about money, where i can do whatever my heart chooses, as long as I feel that it is within my capabilities and my parent's capabilities, nothing is out of reach.

despite the fact that my parents aren't too well off financially anymore, and we finally have to get our family's finances in order, it isn't a situation where I have the burden of supporting an entire family with a meager salary.

but i do understand other people's point of view.

sometimes i do not know what is it that some people envy. just what is it that makes certain people so spiteful, so full of gossip, so outrageous.

i would say that i am lucky, because my parents have taught me the value of money, but they have also taught me that money, while important, and can buy you a lot of things, and that it is a measure of wealth, it isn't that big of a deal. it isn't something to envy if other people have more of it. it is something that they have earned from their living, from their jobs, through working hard, or simply because they got lucky. it isn't something to be compared to, because money is money. Money can be lost, money can break families, money is just a means to buying nicer things.

and just because you have nicer things in life does not make you better than anyone else.

this i fully know.

whatever i had, whatever i have, however big my house is, has nothing to do with me.

it is through the blood,sweat, and tears of my father.

there is nothing to be proud of, except that of my father's labour. on my part, there is nothing to be proud of. i haven't been earning a million dollars to earn this lifestyle. i haven't been working hard.

so to be envious of such a pitiful thing, is quite a sad thing to harbour feelings for.

because i have achieved nothing.